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How God Found Me: A story of Hope, Redemption and Miracles

By Mariya Pypenko (Feit)
Translated and Written by Lisa Kravchuk

I was born into a family where my parents believed in God, but I did not serve Him and did not attend church. I was very involved at my school as a head-senior student, lead member of a Communist Youth organization and attended an atheist club where we stood against religions and superstition. But I never opposed my parents’ faith. When my parents read us the Bible, I didn’t understand or consider it.

My parents are Russian Germans and were banished to Siberia, Ural region, where I was born on in 1953, in the city of Kospach, Permskaya county. In 1956 our family moved to the city of Vorkuta where my maternal grandma lived. She was sent there due to religious and political reasons, because she was an Adventist believer and said a word in defense of America. Vorkuta was a place where Russians and Germans were sent for different political, religious or criminal reasons.

When I was 14 years old, I experienced the power of the name of Jesus even though I did not understand it. It happened when my brothers got into a fight and my older sister wanted to punish them. Our mom was gone, and my second oldest sister did not think punishment was appropriate; so the two began arguing.

I charged at them with tightly held fists saying, “Stop! Or I will kill you.” There was so much anger in me, they got scared, hid in a corner and began saying, “Satan, leave her, in the name of Jesus Christ.” That very moment, my anger went away. I was very startled by the change in me after these words.

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How God Found Me: A story of Hope, Redemption and Miracles

I did not search for God; He found me! When I was 15 years old, my classmates decided to seek fortune-telling about their future and husbands the night before Christmas.

My father told me that it was forbidden to do that, so I said my first prayer before bedtime, “God, if You exist, then show me my future!” That night I had a dream where God revealed Himself to me and showed me that He is my future! I dreamed of a young man of average heights, dressed in brocade, silver suit (He did not show Himself in a dress, as I did not know how people were dressed in the days of Jesus and would have not understood).

His hair was wavy, the color of chestnut running to his shoulders. His eyes were visually vivid, bluish and full of love. I felt as though I was x-rayed in front of Him and He knows my past, present and the future. I had a knowledge that I would search for a man that resembles His image but would not find anyone like Him.

That morning we had a Christian friend visiting, who led my mother to believing and who was sent to Vorkuta for 25 years due to evangelizing. I told them my dream. Mother said, “It is Jesus Christ and He wants you to accept Him in your life,” but I continued to live as usual.

After God Found Me, I Lived My Life As Usual

It was exactly a year later when I had the same kind of dream the night of Christmas, but I continued to live my life. I finished school and enrolled in a Technology School to become a Certified Nurse. One night I had to stay late. When I was leaving campus, I noticed there were men walking, two from one side and one from another. There was no one else around.

They noticed me and turned my way. I understood they wanted to harm me and a thought went through me, “God if you exist, help me!” I was a fast runner, but this time I could not even move. I felt as though my feet were cast iron. The men continued walking my way and I heard them speak to each other, “Let’s not go her way. It’s a strong and tall guy by her, and he has a sword!”

I looked both ways but could not see anyone. I heard them repeat these words to themselves and they turned around. When they were a minimum of 10 meters from me, my feet suddenly became normal again and I took off so fast like never before.

At home, I told my mother about the experience and asked her who that “tall, strong and with a sword” could be, and she said it was an angel God sent to protect me because He thinks of me and because she was worried and prayed for me.

At that time, the church where my mother and two older sisters were attending was praying for the children of believing parents, that the Lord would deliver and baptize them. It was not legally allowed at that time, and there was no actual building to gather in as the prayer house was burned.

“God, if You exist, give me Your Holy Spirit or I will turn to the secular living.”

Because of government persecution, Christian gatherings were done at homes or apartments. It was a Sunday, a day of fasting. Suddenly I had a compelling desire to say, “God, if You exist, give me Your Holy Spirit or I will turn to the secular living,” for I was at the crossroad either faith in God or the world.

When I said these words, my mouth opened and I began talking and singing on clear angelic tongues. I felt as though God lifted me, along with my baby sister, unto the clouds. I was experiencing Divine Presence.

My brother Peter, who was in the same room, had a vision at the same time. He saw a black bird take off from my head to meet a dove coming from heaven. There was a fight in midair and feathers flying around; then, the dove increased in size and swallowed the black bird. When the dove landed on my head, I began singing and talking in heavenly languages.

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My mom was excited and took me to church that day. It was my first time stepping into the place of prayer. When those present found out that God answered their prayers, they could not pray in their own language. Everyone prayed and sang in holy languages. It was a huge glory to God!!

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It’s not people who seek God, but God seeks people! He knows our hearts. Don’t get despaired or discouraged. He hears the prayers of mothers and fathers.

Often people seek the gifts and blessings of God, but God gives as He desires and sees fit. It is important to desire and love the Spirit of God Himself, and the rest God will provide.

God is worthy of people’s love. He is grand! He chooses people from variety of families, nationalities, and denominations; for He knows the past, the present and the future.

He hears prayers and continues His works of saving souls. I am very grateful God found me, and to this day, He is my greatest Friend and Husband according to my heart. I give Him all praise! He found me on time, for He is a God of a Right time!

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Lisa Pypenko Kravchuk is  the young mother who translated God Who Are You? AND Who Am ? into Russian. Her mother is Mariya, who wrote this article and edited the book. You can see the book at the button below–along with an update on her story:

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El Roi: God Who Sees You and Knows Your Name

“So, you’re moving to the lake to retire and die here, huh?” Our new neighbor retrieved his dog with these words and left.

God Who Sees You Knows your name

Jim and I were left shocked and speechless. Oh! how I wish I could have a second chance to answer him. I’d say, “No sir, we serve a God who sees us and knows us by our name, and our life has only just begun!”

Since moving to our lake-view home, we’ve seen the assignments from the Lord – El Roi [the God Who Sees] come into a more clear focus. That assignment for me involves you, for as I’ve come to know El Roi better, He has given me an avenue to help you do the same–to know Him, really know Him and who He is.

First of all, this will be a backwards article, because I’d like to start at the ending (or almost ending) of where I am now as I experience El Roi. After getting settled in our house in the winter, all the summer greenery outside was its ordinary, cold and bare bushes. But something wonderful happened when Spring drew near.

El Roi the God who creates red azaleas sees you and me too

One morning, I opened the front curtains as my eyes beheld beautiful, red flowers on the bushes outside, all along the front of the house–azaleas! I could hardly believe it. I had always wanted azaleas, but we never lived where they would grow.

In awe of God’s grace, love and mercy to me, I kept thanking Him as I felt His love sweep over me. He seemed to say to my heart, “I’ve held these just for you. They are from Me. You are mine, and I love you. You have not come to the lake to die. I have a plan for you here.”

God Who Sees White Peony
God Who Sees White Peony

Slowly, more flowers kept popping up and out. This article will give you a peek into my beautiful world. They are blooming as I write today and share fresh images with you.

This article is an introduction to what the God Who Sees You has given me to share. All last year of 2017, He directed me to start a blog site and to tear up my book, GOD Who Are You? AND Who Am I?: Knowing and Experiencing God by His Hebrew Names, into 15 minute segments….to make it a free online eCourse.

The book examines, not only El Roi, but eleven more prominent Hebrew names of God that help us know Him more intimately. And, by learning who He is, we learn who we are, where we have come from and where we are going.

El Roi – The ‘God Who Sees’ Asks You Two Questions

God Who Sees Purple Clematis
God Who Sees Purple Clematis

These two questions, “Where have you come from, and where are you going?” the angel of the Lord spoke to Hagar in Genesis 16. She had been running away from her circumstances until she came to the end of her road. He called her by her name when she had not spoken her name. It was because of this recognition that this ‘Person’ who spoke to her was God, that she named Him El Roi – the God Who Sees.

Furthermore, God told her that the child she was carrying should be named Ishmael, meaning, “the Lord has heard of your misery.” She felt unloved, only used; not appreciated, only abused. Only in the God Who Saw her did she find Someone who had her best interests at heart.

God Who Sees Red Roses
God Who Sees Red Roses

There’s no need to get into the details of the 8 principles of El Roi right now, because we do that in the first chapter of the book and the eCourse.

You can learn more about it by watching my 5-minute video where I tell about the 40 women who helped me write it–with their testimonies – HERE.

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It will change your life forever, especially if you are like Hagar and running in the direction from which you should be going. Have you pinpointed where you came from, so you can face your past in order to see where you are going?

El Roi – The ‘God Who Sees’ Knows Your Name

God Who Sees Red & Pink Azaleas
God Who Sees Red & Pink Azaleas

I look forward to seeing you on the other side – as I watch for your name to pop up like a beautiful, unexpected azalea bush.

MY STORY – HOW EL ROI FOUND ME is at this link for you. The first time I told this story, a friend shared it with her grandson. She was able to use this method my father used on me to guide him to receive Jesus Christ as his Savior. [No email required.]

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11. El Roi God Sees Our Affliction, Circumstances and Hears Our Misery

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Genesis 16, verse eleven, the Lord told Hagar that He saw her unborn child and told her she would have a son and she should call him Ishmael, meaning, “the Lord has heard of your misery.”

Psalms 139:16 says, “My eyes saw your unformed substance and in My book all the days of your life were written before ever they took shape when as yet there were none of them.”

Did we get that? There is a book in heaven with God’s plan for us in it–not only is every day of our life recorded, but our life’s purpose is included.

God sees where we are, as well as our circumstances. “And not a creature exists that is concealed from His sight, but all things are open and exposed, naked and defenseless to the eyes of Him with whom we have to do” (Jer. 23:24 Amplified).

Every detail of our lives is recorded in heaven. “You number and record my wanderings; put my tears into your bottle; are they not in Your book?” (Ps. 56:8 Amplified). He records our wanderings. He knows every move we make, every word we say, and every tear we shed.

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As a small child, Denise called out to God when she was afraid. Today, she says, “I knew God was watching over me. I could feel His presence. As I grew older and was never taught about Jesus, I didn’t know I could have a relationship with Him and that He would fill the void in my heart.”

12. El Roi God Sees Our Future Purposes and Designs

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God Sees My Future Purposes and Designs

God told Hagar more about her unborn son in Verse Twelve, “He will be a wild donkey of a man; his hand will be against everyone and everyone’s hand against him, and he will live in hostility toward all his brothers.”

Job 39:5-8 gives another description of the Ishmaelites: “Who let the wild donkey go free? Who untied his ropes? I gave him the wasteland as his home, the salt flats as his habitat. He laughs at the commotion in the town; he does not hear a driver’s shout. He ranges the hills for his pasture and searches for any green thing.” In other words, He will be a wild donkey of a man . . . living in hostility toward all his brothers. The country which these free descendants of Ishmael may be properly said to possess stretches from northwestern Syria to the Arabian Sea, and from Egypt to the Persian Gulf; a tract of land 1800 miles in length by 900 in breadth.”2

Surely, God was saying He had a plan. He had a purpose, and He designs all things, even though we may never see the complete picture or understand it all. But He knows, and that is what matters, “For I know the thoughts and plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future” (Jer. 29:11).

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God has a purpose and a plan for our lives as well. God gave Denise the gift of writing songs and a full, rich voice to sing them. She went back to school to learn voice and take piano lessons in preparation for the future she could now see God had for her. She also furnished her spiritual library with all versions of the Bible she could understand and self-help books to increase her learning.

13-14. God  El Roi our Father Who Sees His Children Wants to Be Wanted

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God Our Father Who Sees Wants to be Wanted

In the Thirteenth and Fourteenth Verses, Hagar gave the name El Roi to the Lord who spoke to her: “You are the God who sees me,” for she said, “I have now seen the One who sees me. That is why the well was called Beer Lahai Roi; it is still there, between Kadesh and Bered.”

How can we tie these loving actions and requirements from God together to make enough sense to have an intimate relationship with this One who sees us? Maybe some clues can be found in looking at God’s parenting skills. If we are His children, surely He is our Father “for we are His offspring” (Acts 17:28).

The parenting guidelines, taught by Jim Fay and Dr. Foster Cline, in their book Parenting with Love and Logic could easily come from this passage about El Roi. Their teachings are widely utilized by parents and educators. Their premise is: “Effective parenting centers around love . . . that is powerful enough to allow kids to make mistakes and permit them to live with the consequences of those mistakes. Most mistakes do have logical consequences. And those consequences, when accompanied by empathy-our compassionate understanding of the child’s disappointment, frustration, and pain-hit home with mind-changing power.”3

Fay and Cline continue to say, “The challenge of parenting is to love enough to allow them [children] to fail-to stand back, however painful it may be and let significant learning opportunities build our children.”4

Did God allow Abraham and Sarah the freedom to fail? You bet He did. He did not step in to keep Sarah from asking Hagar to sleep with her husband. He did not step in to keep Abraham from doing so. God was not like so many parents who are the rescuing kind, who rescue out of their own need to be needed. He is a parent who wants to be wanted. The children of rescuing parents never learn to think, to decide, or to learn how to solve their own problems. They don’t take responsibility for their choices or understand there are consequences.

Did God step in to keep Hagar from failing? Yes, in the desert. Why? Because good parenting calls for “stepping in (1) when our children are in definite danger of losing life or limb, or of making a decision that could affect them for a lifetime; and (2) when children know that we know that they know that they cannot cope with their problem, and the consequences are very significant.”5

Did Hagar learn from her interaction with the God she named El-Roi? Did her attitude change? Genesis 21 tells about the birth of Isaac to Sarah and the great feast on the day he was weaned. Ishmael mocked Isaac, the child of promise fulfilled, just as Hagar had ridiculed Sarah when Hagar found herself pregnant. Children adopt the attitudes of their parents. Evidently, fourteen years later, Hagar’s attitude had not changed.

Hagar only partially obeyed God–physically, not spiritually. Matthew 7: 13-14 says, “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.” Hagar took the wide, easy, lazy road. She was unwilling to make the effort necessary to allow God to change her heart, mind and soul, which is the narrow road to life. And, Hagar’s choice affected her son’s choices and those of his descendants. How about you? Are you partially or wholly obedient to God?

Did God step in to keep Denise from failing? Certainly, He did. He sought and found her in the bookstore. “Although my father and my mother have forsaken me, yet the Lord will take me up [adopt me as His child]” (Ps. 27:10 Amplified).

What did Abraham and Sarah learn from the logical consequences of their choices? Did they learn to think, to decide, to be responsible (accountable) for their own behavior? Sarah faced a real problem after Isaac was born. She had not accepted the responsibility for her own actions and words before when she blamed Abraham for getting Hagar pregnant. She was now forced to have to deal with her mistake because of the resulting strife and hostility between Ishmael and Isaac. She told Abraham he needed to send Hagar and Ishmael away, because both could not share in the inheritance together.

Of course, this greatly distressed Abraham. What happened next is priceless! If you are a parent and old enough to appreciate the joy of having your adult child come to you for advice after the years they thought you knew nothing, then you may appreciate what happened. The adult child Abraham of 100 years of age went to his Father seeking His wisdom. Abraham certainly did not want to make another mistake he would regret. He had to know this time before he did anything.

And, finally, the only way he could know was to go to the One who knows all and sees all.

Can you feel the Father El Roi’s joy when Abraham took the time to present Sarah’s suggestion to God for His advice? God responded with the fatherly love and logic parenting empathy saying, “Do not be so distressed about the boy and your maidservant.”

Then, he said, “Listen to whatever Sarah tells you, because it is through Isaac that your offspring will be reckoned [called]. I will make the son of the maidservant into a nation also, because he is your offspring” (Gen. 21:11-13). God was telling Abraham, “I have a plan.”

This is where the relationship between God and Abraham begins to deepen, although Abraham knew God for more than twenty-five years. The Lord probably reminded Abraham (through His still, small voice) of His promise to Hagar to increase her descendants. Abraham then recognized God’s intent: the only way two nations could grow is if both sons were separated. Abraham wanted God’s wisdom and sought it out. Only then, did Abraham and Sarah communicate.

In 1911 B.C.6 Abraham and Sarah had to live with the consequences of their choices. Those consequences are significant because they affect us today. Likewise, our choices affect everyone around us-for eternity. You may ask, “Why didn’t God step in with Abraham and Sarah to keep them from making a decision that would adversely affect them and the whole world for the rest of time?” Perhaps, He is still trying to get the attention of the descendants, and as our Parent, He is still trying to teach us through the choices we make.

Conflict is the passageway to intimacy in any relationship. Hostility, suffering, adversity, all force us to look outside ourselves for answers. What a stubborn, rebellious lot we are!

Could it be God is allowing continual conflict because He wants His children to want Him, and to seek His wisdom in everything, just as He is constantly seeking an intimate relationship with us?

What better promise can we have than the one God gave the children of Abraham who became the children of Israel? In 597 B.C., after seventy years in captivity in Babylon (Iraq), God told the Israelites, “Then you will call upon me, and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. ‘I will be found by you,’ declares the Lord, ‘and will bring you back from captivity'” (Jer. 29:12-14).

The same is true for us today when we seek God through facing life’s difficulties in the light of our Father El Roi’s love.

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ENDNOTES

  1. Adam Clark, LL.D., F.S.A., &c., Clark’s Commentary Volume I—Genesis to Deuteronomy (Abington Press, New York, Nashville) p. 110.
  2. Clark, Clark’s Commentary, Volume I, p.
  3. Foster Cline, M.D. and Jim Fay, Parenting with Love and Logic, (Pinion Press, Colorado Springs, CO,1990,), p. 12.
  4. , p. 13.
  5. , p. 51
  6. Clark, Clark’s Commentary, Volume 1, p. 111.

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7. God El Roi Who Sees Seeks and Finds

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God Seeks and Finds Me in the Desert

Who was this angel of the Lord, or God as El Roi who sees, in Verse Seven, who found Hagar? Most Bible scholars agree that the angel of the Lord in the Old Testament represents Jesus Christ before he is born of the Virgin Mary because of “his promising to perform what God alone could do and foretelling what God alone could know.”1

The angel of the Lord found Hagar, meaning He was searching for her. Jesus himself tells us He came to seek and to find those who are lost. After He met Zacchaeus in a tree on the road to Jericho, Jesus said to him, “Today salvation has come to this house, because this man, too, is a son of Abraham. For the Son of Man came to seek and to save what was lost” (Luke 19:9). God’s unseen Spirit is constantly seeking, constantly finding, constantly saving, and continually initiating a relationship with us until we make the right choice to follow Him.

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God, the Son–Jesus–found Denise in the bookstore. She made the right choice in answering yes to the question the lady put to her, “Do you want to be saved?” As time went on, she knew what that meant, because the Lord’s presence was with her.

Some years later a friend gave her a book, Angels on Assignment, by Charles and Frances Hunter as told to Roland Buck. It emphasizes our Heavenly Father’s passion for His family and the searching He does for His children, creating choices for them, over and over, until they make the right decision.

Denise realized how important it was to share her testimony, so she wrote it down. She then emptied her savings account, bought thirty books, and mailed them to her friends across the United States. She does not know if the lady in the bookstore was an angel or not. The lady said she had been to a revival at her church, held a tract from which they prayed, but never followed up with the girls, which always bothered them. Whatever the truth is, Denise became an angel on assignment to her friends as God’s messenger had so boldly shared with her.

8. God El Roi  Who Sees Calls Us By Our Name

El Roi God Who Sees Me
God Calls Me by My Name

In the Eighth Verse, the Angel of the Lord said, “Hagar, servant of Sarah.” He knew who she was and called her by her name, and then He proceeded to remind her who she was, “servant of Sarah.” He was saying to her, “Hagar, I know you, I created you. But, the question is, “do you know who you are?”

The Lord was saying to her, “I have called you by your name. I have surnamed you though you have not known Me. I am the Lord, and there is none else, there is no God besides Me. I will gird you and arm you though you have not known Me” (Isa.45:4-5 Amplified).

Notice the angel of the Lord did not ask her who she was. He knew He was the only one who could reveal that to her. He is the only one who can tell us who we are. He was telling her, “Hagar, you are my child; furthermore, I have even tattooed your name upon my palm” (see Isa. 49:16).

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After meeting Jesus in the bookstore, Denise told Marie, “I began to face the reality in my life–that it was based on lies. I was filled with emotions I didn’t know how to deal with, and a realization that I didn’t even know who I was or why I felt the way I did. I had to ask myself what else in my life I was not facing.”

8. God El Roi  Who Sees Asks Us Two Questions That Enable Us To Look At Who We Are

El Roi God Who Sees Me
God Asks Me Two Questions that Enable Me to Look at Who I am

In Verse Eight, the Lord asked, “Where have you come from, and where are you going?” Hagar is truthful because the Angel of the Lord knew everything anyway, “A man’s ways are in full view of the Lord, and he examines all his paths” (Prov. 5:21).

Hagar honestly answered, “I am running away.” But, she gave no answer for where she was going. She had not even considered her destination. All she knew was that she was running away. The reality of the situation was this: she was alone in the middle of the desert, on a road leading to death. If the Lord had not intervened, called her by her name to cause her to consider these two questions, she would have died.

The reality of blind decisions is death-the termination of life, whether mentally, physically, or spiritually. Honestly facing the Truth is the first step to life, whether it is eternal life or living one of vitality here on earth.

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When Denise began to face her life in honesty, she was able to see the physical answer to the question, “Where are you going?” Her husband tried to persuade her to go to her dad’s house (to get her to leave). When the Lord revealed to her that she should, she left and took her younger brother with her. Amazingly, Denise’s husband, who was out of the Marines and unable to hold a job, tagged along. Eventually though, he chose to leave permanently.

Will Denise’s eyes be opened to be able to face her past and the question, where have you come from? Will she experience other aspects of God’s nature to find the emotional and physical health she so desires? We will follow Denise’s story in following chapters as she experiences God by His Hebrew names.

What is our response to these two questions?

Hagar eventually found where she was going by facing the fact she was running, “I’m running from my mistress, Sarah.” It is no different with us. This is a hard question, for our situation may not be so obvious. Although happiness is a surface and fleeting goal, if we ask ourselves what we think will make us happy, we can usually find something we are not facing.

Hagar could have said, “I’d be happy if Sarah treated me well.” The reality was, she was not treating Sarah well, and that is why she was in such a hot spot. Many of us can say we would be happy to be out of debt, but are we facing the discipline to make it happen? We would be happy to be thin, but is the truth that we aren’t taking care of our bodies–we are running from eating correctly and exercising regularly?

At any given time, no matter where our relationship is with the Lord, we can go no further with Him until we have asked ourselves this pressing question: Am I running from something I need to be facing? Maybe we don’t have trouble like Hagar did with her employers; but, are we rebelling against the holy ways of God, not loving our husbands or wives as unto the Lord, or not taking responsibility for our own words and behavior?

Many times we can only find where we are going by facing the fact that we are running, out of fear, from the direction we should be heading. Are we resisting change-leaving our comfort zone to launch out into a new career path, ministry, or leadership position? This book will not provide answers to all your problems, but it will point you to the One who sees all,knows all, and does all things well. It will help you find who you are, where you have come from, and where you are going.

9. God El Roi Who Sees Requires Accountability for Our Choices

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God Requires Accountability for My Choices

The angel of the Lord told Hagar in Verse Nine, “Go back to your mistress and submit to her.” God was requiring Hagar to be accountable for her actions. Who was she? She was Sarah’s maid. In essence, the Lord, by appearing to her, was saying, “You are my child first, Sarah’s maid second. Know that and be that. Face that fact and go home and trust Me to take care of you and to make good come from your life situation.”

Hagar then had a choice to make. She was faced with a life and death decision. Deuteronomy 30:19 says, “I have set before you life and death, the blessing and the curse; therefore choose life, that you and your descendants may live.” God laid out for her, in a personal way, His words of life for her right here, “Go back; submit; grow up.” Being accountable for our behavior always brings with it-a choice. That choice may not seem like a happy one, and rarely is, but when it is based on the words of the One who created us, a deep satisfaction and joy grows through being obedient.

It must not have been easy for Hagar to face the fact she must be obedient ultimately to God and go back to Sarah, to humble herself before her “boss,” her “supervisor,” and the father of her child who was not her husband. If going back would cause physical harm to her, God would not have asked her to return. Everything He asks us to do eventually pushes us to grow from a child to an adult, mentally and spiritually. Colossians 3:22-24 says:

Slaves obey your earthly masters in everything, and do it, not only when their eye is on you and to win their favor, but with sincerity of heart and reverence for the Lord. Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward.

God’s desire for Hagar was a change in attitude-which is what the Bible is, an attitude book. Being accountable to God first brings purpose in the drudgery of day-to-day existence. It is choosing life.

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Denise was no different than Hagar. She was faced with a life and death situation. She had fought hard for her marriage even though her husband gambled away the savings she had before they married. Many nights he left her waiting alone in the parking lot where she worked until 2:00 a.m. She had constant stomach problems during this period: worked one week, off two weeks, and never weighed more than ninety pounds. She knew that for her own life’s sake, she had to let him go; when she did, a whole new life awaited her.

Denise summarizes her feelings, “When I was told the truth of why my husband married me, I began to remove my rose-colored glasses. My whole life, I denied all the hurt and negativity I lived with day-to-day, pretending in my heart I was happy when I was miserable and depressed; I buried my true feelings.”

Denise’s choice in being accountable to choose life meant returning to her father’s house, and God took care of the rest.

10. God El Roi  Who Sees Blesses Obedience

El Roi God Who Sees Me
God Blesses Obedience

The Angel of the Lord added in Verse Ten, “I will so increase your descendants that they will be too numerous to count.” God is saying to Hagar, if she will repent, change her mind and attitude, turn around and go back home, she will find life and become the mother of many. But we find later, she was only partially obedient. She went back physically, but did her attitude change?

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Some time after choosing to return to where her father lived, Denise met a man who loved and appreciated her. After moving in with him, she began to listen to Dr. James Dobson’s Focus on the Family radio program. It convicted her of how she was living. In obedience to God, she and her fiancé moved into separate bedrooms. Her fiancé asked a friend of his, who was the pastor of a small church in town, to marry them. Finally, Denise found a church through the man God brought into her life. They committed to this small group of believers who became their accountability support group.

God began to urge Denise to be baptized, so she asked God to convict her husband also. One Sunday morning when leaving church, she asked the pastor, “What do I need to do to be baptized?”

Her husband, who accepted the Lord through Denise’s witness, responded, “I was going to ask the same question.” (The sermon had not been on baptism.) They were both baptized on Easter Sunday, thus, beginning their spiritual relationship with God together.

M1A El Roi God Sees Me

El Roi God Sees MeDenise was the envy of her co-workers. They spent many rushed fifteen-minute breaks and half-our lunches together in the crowded, stuffy, hospital cafeteria. Twenty-five-year-old Denise was beautiful with her long dark hair and matching brown eyes. Her lean body was such that a person knew she never had to count calories. But her business associates soon learned she was more sensitive about being thin than they were about being, well, not so thin.

Denise’s outward appearance, with her ready smile, masked all the hurt and pain she held inside until she missed work for two weeks in a stressful period of her life. Her supervisor had to escort her to the emergency room when she was unable to breathe while at work. Serious stomach problems, anxiety attacks, difficulty in breathing and sleeping, and depression plagued her.

As a child, Denise had to adjust to numerous schools. After moving from Inglewood, California, to Tukwila, Washington, during second grade, she did not know how to read. Frustrated, she told her teacher, “I’m just not going to do it!”

Her instructor explained, “Denise, if you don’t learn how to read, you won’t be able to get a job or to even order food at a restaurant.”

Convinced she could not take the easy way out, Denise started to work hard and by the end of the school year, reached the top of her class.

At the age of fifteen, Denise was uprooted to Whitefish, Montana, where relatives helped her care for her younger brother, and her ailing mother. Her mother had been diagnosed with lung cancer and given only months to live.

When recalling this time in her life, Denise managed to press her full lips together, then explained, “While every other girl was worried about what to wear to the homecoming dance, I worried about what people would think seeing me pushing my mother in a wheelchair, hooked up to oxygen, wearing a turban to cover her hair loss. While other girls were enjoying their dates at the homecoming dance, I wondered when my mother would have her next chemotherapy treatment.”

“When my mother died three months later, it was amazing the weight that lifted from me. I could finally be a teenager again and go to dances without wondering if that night would be the night my mother died, and I would miss saying goodbye. The hardest thing I had to do was to watch her go from being vibrant and full of life to being only a shell of what she once was.Ready to see her free of pain, one night I pleaded with God to please take her. That night she died.”

Her mother’s death was only one of many wounds. Before Denise was born, her mother left her father to live with another man. While still young, she remembered praying in the middle of the night for God to stop the loud quarreling between her mom and her boyfriend. She shielded her younger brother from the fights as much as she could. When he was drunk, the man beat her older brother with a chair.

The same year her mom died, the boyfriend of her mother died. Denise and her younger brother went to live with her mother’s cousin while her older brother faced life on his own. Her second cousin, Marie, of about the same age, became like a sister to her. To this day, she refers to Marie as “Sister.”

At the age of eighteen, Denise married a twenty-two-year-old marine. A year later, she took in her fourteen-year-old brother to live with them. After about three years, her husband told her, “I really don’t love you. The marital benefits increased my paycheck.” She cried in his arms.

El Roi God Sees Me

With her marriage falling apart and feeling alone, Denise asked Marie to go shopping. They liked the South Coast Plaza, in Costa Mesa, California, especially the Barnes and Noble bookstore.

It was on this day that Denise was unexpectedly brought to the turning point in her life. The two girls found themselves in the spiritual section looking at books about angels. Suddenly, a gray-haired lady approached them and pointed out some other angel books that were good reading. Then, she started talking about Jesus, and said, “Jesus loves you.”

Denise always became defensive when strangers started preaching to her. She had built a high wall against anyone who appeared to be a religious freak or a holy roller. Her natural instinct was to tune the woman out. Her parents referred to themselves as Christians because they believed there was a God. Denise also considered herself a Christian and adopted the attitude from them that if a person was enthusiastic about God, that person was a fanatic, and that was bad. The only time Denise heard the name of “Jesus Christ” mentioned in her home was when it was used in vain.

El Roi God Sees Me

Today though, it was impossible to turn this lady off. The girls got chills when she talked about Jesus. They never felt this way before. Who is this Jesus she is talking about? Denise was listening because she thought Marie was listening. Marie was listening only because she thought Denise was listening.

Suddenly, the lady had the girls’ full attention when she asked a question they had never heard, “Have you ever been saved?” What did that mean?

Further explaining, the woman asked, “Would you like to pray and ask Jesus to come into your hearts?”

Marie looked at Denise who said, “Yes,” so Marie answered yes. They grabbed hands, bowed their heads, and prayed together-asking Jesus who died for their sins to forgive them, and then asked Him to come into their hearts. The woman then took each girl’s face in her hands and one-by-one, looked into her eyes, and said, “I can see a difference.”

Denise hurried home to look in the mirror to see if she looked different! No, she thought. Later, she told her co-workers, “Whatever I received, I didn’t know what to do with it.” The lady had encouraged the girls to get into a Bible-believing church, pointed one out to them, and walked away.

For two more years the girls drove by churches wondering if they would be good ones to visit, but they never did. They wondered if they really were different. Was that encounter for real? Did they meet God that day? Did Jesus Christ actually come into their hearts? Hungry and searching for answers, they both found they wanted to read their Bibles. Denise had a King James Version (KJV), given to her by her first father, but it was difficult to understand.

As Denise experienced lack of love and communication with an earthly father, she found herself reluctant to trust a relationship with someone called a Heavenly Father. Denise felt abandoned by her mother. She married to find love from a man who did not know how to love. She felt used. Could there be Someone who was real and who would never leave her? Was it possible to ever be loved and to feel happy? All these questions were answered for Denise as time passed.

Through her searching, Denise discovered what happened to her in the bookstore also happened to a young woman in the Bible. In Genesis, the first book in the Old Testament (O.T.), Chapter 16, El Roi, our Heavenly Father Who Sees, reveals that He yearns to have an intimate relationship with us. Furthermore, this chapter also gives the principles that guide us in gaining that intimate relationship which helps us to overcome any challenge we could ever face in life. We will decipher verses 7-14, one-by-one, to see how they relate to Denise and us.

Hagar names God as El Roi God Sees Me

In the story prior to this special chapter, God promised Abraham if he would leave the land of his father, the land of Mesopotamia, or present day Iraq, God would bring him to a land He would show him. After arriving and settling in the land of Canaan, or present day Israel, God promised Abraham He would give him a son, one coming from his own body, and that his descendants would be as numerous as the stars. However, ten years later his wife Sarah was still not pregnant.

Sarah told Abraham, “The Lord has kept me from having children. Go, sleep with my maidservant; [Sarah had a maid named Hagar, who was probably given to her as they left Egypt from a previous trip] perhaps I can build a family through her” (Gen.16:1). The emphasis on “I” is added because actions stemming from self rather than God always backfire, resulting in chaos.

Abraham agreed and slept with Hagar who conceived. When Hagar knew she was pregnant, pride consumed her as she now viewed herself superior to her mistress. Sarah said to Abraham, “You are responsible for the wrong I am suffering. I put my servant in your arms, and now that she knows she is pregnant, she despises me. May the Lord judge between you and me” (Gen.16:5).

“‘Your servant is in your hands,’ Abraham said, ‘Do with her whatever you think best.’ Then Sarah mistreated Hagar; so she fled from her” (Gen.16:6). This brings us to these key verses:

7 The angel of the Lord found Hagar near a spring in the desert; it was the spring that is beside the road to Shur.
8 And he said, “Hagar, servant of Sarah, where have you come from, and where are you going?”
9 Then the angel of the Lord told her, “Go back to your mistress and submit to her.”
10 The angel added, “I will so increase your descendants that they will be too numerous to count.”
11 The angel of the Lord also said to her, “You are now with child and you will have a son. You shall name him Ishmael, for the Lord has heard of your misery.
12 He will be a wild donkey of a man; his hand will be against everyone and everyone’s hand against him, and he will live in hostility toward all his brothers.”
13 She gave this name to the Lord who spoke to her: “You are the God who sees me,” for she said, “I have now seen the One who sees me.”
14 That is why the well was called Beer Lahai Roi; it is still there, between Kadesh and Bered.  Genesis 16:7-14