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M10C Endured Bitterness: How Pat Learned to Overcome Fear

Pat  Jessee overcame emotional bondage – endured bitterness

Blue lightening landscape with text overlay: How Pat Learned she was in bondage to FEARFor Pat, acquiring an unwavering faith through endured bitterness meant overcoming emotional bondage with lack of trust and a fear of what people thought about her. She had an inability many times to eat anything except oatmeal, rice, fish or beans due to allergic reactions. Pat sought the Lord by reading her Bible and going to a Christian conference. As she read 2 Kings 20, where God told Isaiah to say to King Hezekiah, “I have heard your prayer, I have seen your tears; behold, I will heal you” (2 Kings 20:5), she felt God had healed her. During the ministry time, the Lord brought up a memory of her mother ironing and not speaking to Pat because she was mad at her about something. It was a repeated thing that brought feelings of rejection. Tears flowed as healing entered.

After the conference, Barbara Watts called Pat and said, “Your food problem is a hidden anorexia. You’re healed.” Pat wanted to eat. She was not trying to starve herself, but because of self-hate, her body was rejecting food in the form of food allergies. From that moment, the worst of the problems with food were over. Today, she can eat anything unless she gets too stressed.

About this same time, Pat went through a mid-life crisis where she felt like a failure with no purpose in her life. Mothering days were over and she stopped painting her beautiful pictures because no one was buying her paintings. The words of a friend spoke to her heart: “God put wild flowers on the side of the mountain nobody ever sees.”

That spoke volumes to her, if God does that, then my paintings are valuable to Him, even if I never sell another.

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Image of a painting by Pat Jessee: Jesus and His Bride www.patjesseecreations.com

Pat started painting again. She went back to school and got a degree in Interior Design. God gave her three dreams to go to school; it gave her a safe place to succeed and not fail. God built confidence in her this way, but especially through His Word. Every day, she read Psalm 139:13-14 until she grew to believe God truly did love her: “You created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.”

Pat also overcame a mitral valve prolapse which an echocardiogram had revealed was there. After a friend prayed for her, she felt heat and it was gone! During prayer at a conference, her jaw moved forward to where the dentist said it should be. Pat proclaims, “You will know the truth and the truth shall set you free” (John 8:32). She also claims for herself that “everything God created is good, and nothing is to be rejected if it is received with thanksgiving, because it is consecrated by the word of God and prayer” (1 Tim. 4:4-5).

Emotional healing comes before physical healing

Emotional Healing comes Before Physical HealingDuring her battle, after she was initially healed, the symptoms returned—back to rice and oatmeal. One day, while driving in her car, she prayed, “Lord, what’s going on? Why can’t I get to the bottom of why my healing has not been permanent?”

God’s reply was a vision. She saw him on the cross as He said, “I died for you. Even in my weakness, I conquered on the cross.” She pulled to the side of the road because she felt the heaviness of the Holy Spirit—a good feeling; then, heat in her stomach—His touch again.

God opened her eyes to see her deceased mother discovering her own mother dead. Pat immediately had an understanding of the fear that had consumed her mother—fear of the same thing happening to her. Her mother was always tense and worrisome, unable to trust, and her treatment of Pat caused feelings of rejection with the inability to trust, as well. The Lord spoke to Pat’s heart, I took your mother out of a poor immigrant background, and you brought her to the Lord.

Endured bitterness overcome


Having dealt with the cause of her physical problems, Pat is now able to trust. She does not fear what people think of her. She walks free in many areas of her life and has a boldness to share Jesus as God uses her to minister to others. Pat is also one of the women who travel with Barbara to fast and pray.

God has blessed her painting and uses it for His glory in the pictures, murals and banners she paints of “who God is.”

One of the best things that happened to Pat was receiving a note written to her about an exposed nut–that endured bitterness. The friend saw how Pat was and what she would become—a strong teacher, gifted and powerful, who previously had been like a nut—half hidden under a shell so no one could see the valuable protein and oils inside. She wrote:

What could it do? It was worn out with introspection and could not escape from its shell. As long as no one could partake of its full nutritional value, it would shrivel up and die. It had to escape. So what could this poor nut do? It decided to be still and surrender its case to the Lord who made it in the first place. You take up my cause.

Jesus came and Pat invited him to stay. This nut prayed to God and said, “Lord you made me with so many hidden values and potentials and none have reached their full potential.”

I myself saw this hidden nut. The Lord caused a bird to come along and pick at the shell, until it was fully removed. The nut was exposed; and, so we all looked, but we didn’t see just Pat alone. The whole room was filled with a picture book of the released joy, peace, confidence, and productivity of a Pat who was teaching others the way.

Openly and freely, without shame and excess baggage from her past, Pat says, “I was that nut.” “Oh Lord of hosts, How blessed is the [wo]man who trusts in Thee!” (Ps. 84:12).

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M8D Jesus the Healer: Jehovah Rapha

Words of Jesus: The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind, to release the oppressed, to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor.—Luke 4:18-19

Jesus Publicly Reveals Himself as Prophecy Fulfilled

Before Jesus officially began His earthly ministry, He spent forty days and forty nights fasting and praying in the desert. He was there tempted by the devil. Through four temptations, Jesus defeated satan with the same Word of God we have today. Four times, He said, “It is written; it is written; it is written; it is written . . . .” (See Luke 4:4, 8, 10 and 12). After defeating the devil, Jesus began His earthly ministry by going to the synagogues to preach, beginning in his hometown of Nazareth.

This particular Sabbath day in the synagogue, the attendant gave Jesus the scroll of the prophet Isaiah. Unrolling it, Jesus found Chapter 61, verses 1-2, and read to the people, “The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind, to release the oppressed, to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor.”

In these verses, Jesus publicly revealed Himself as fulfillment of Isaiah’s prophecy, and that His purpose in coming to earth was to preach salvation, to proclaim freedom, to release the oppressed and to proclaim the Year of Jubilee. In other words, Jesus announced He was Jehovah-Rapha in the flesh—coming to save, heal and restore. Peter tells us “He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness: by his wounds you have been healed. For you were like sheep going astray, but now you have returned to the Shepherd and Overseer of your souls” (1 Peter 2:24-25).

By His stripes, we were healed over two thousand years ago. Jesus healed us in all four areas of our lives on that cross. This is a continual process of healing we need to receive throughout our lifetime. The subject of healing, as a continual process, is one we need to look at with a balanced mind. This means, not only in the manner of physical, mental, spiritual and emotional soundness, but in the cause of the problem, who initiated the healing, what will the result be and why.

Yellow lillies with text, Because of Jehovah Rapha I am healed

From the story of Job, we learn sin is not always the problem or reason for the disease or illness, but to deepen our faith, to see Him more clearly—with our heart, not just our head.

When Jesus came on the scene, He taught His disciples in a balanced way with the miracles He performed. He saw a man who had been blind from birth. His disciples asked him, “‘Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?’” (John 9:2).

“‘Neither this man nor his parents sinned,” said Jesus, “but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life’” (John 9:3). The whole purpose for this blindness was so God would get the glory through this man’s life, at this very moment in time—for all time.

Jesus shows us that we are being sifted as wheat

Jesus shows sifting as wheatAgain, Jesus teaches us, as Jehovah-Rapha, in dealing with Peter. When Jesus warned Peter he would deny him three times, Peter vehemently denied he would, “‘Lord, I am ready to go with you to prison and to death’” (Luke 22:33).

Jesus answered, “‘I tell you, Peter, before the rooster crows today, you will deny three times that you know me’” (Luke 22:34).

Jesus’ words proved true. During Jesus’ arrest and trial, Peter denied knowing Jesus and being one of His disciples. As with most all the miracles Jesus performed, He initiated the healing. After rising from the grave and appearing to the disciples, Jesus singled out Peter and asked him three times, “‘Simon son of John, do you truly love me?’” (John 21:15). Three times, Peter replied the same, “Yes, Lord, you know that I love you.”

The repetition of three times to speak his love for the Lord, cancelled out the three denials, and with the repetition, the Lord’s forgiveness and restoration settled from Peter’s head to his heart. Peter must have remembered other words Jesus spoke to him when saying his name three times, “‘Simon, Simon, Satan has asked to sift you as wheat. But I have prayed for you, Simon, that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned back, strengthen your brothers’” (Luke 22:31-32).

With Peter’s restoration, Jesus gave him his life’s assignment. His exact words were:

“Feed my lambs” (John 21:15); “Take care of my sheep” (John 21:16); “Feed my sheep” (John 21:17); “Follow me!” (John 21:19). This healing and reinstatement process defined Peter’s life purpose, with a view of his future—he glorified God throughout the rest of his life until his own crucifixion.

We will go through the same sifting process as Peter if we follow Jesus. Without the sifting, we would never learn the B-E-A-R Facts of Faith; we would never learn to truly love our Lord who heals us. When we begin to understand that satan was created by God to be used by Him to help refine us, it is easier to weather the trial. And why? So we will learn that satan will surrender to us when we know who we are, and use God’s Word, our sword, against him. It is the only way we learn that “no weapon forged against us will prevail” (Isa. 54:17).

Through the sifting process, the  people we will learn about next grew to love Jehovah-Rapha more: